am i turning into a man?

why won't my sex drive calm down? i've never been this obsessed before... i go to sleep fantasizing, and i wake up fantasizing. a good chunk of my waking hours is spent turned on. good lord, it's unnerving. is this what it feels ike to be a guy? did someone re-wire me when i wasn't looking?

well, if i'm not a guy, then i've definitely turned into a 14-year-old girl. seriously. the flirting thing went horribly wrong again yesterday, i think i need to take some classes in it. i was at a barbecue with a bunch of people i know from dancing, and who showed up but the adorable doctor i mentioned in a post a couple of months ago. at one point, he came over to me and asked how everything was, and i believe my response was something like, "duh... duh... duh... duh..." (<--- spoken at 500 miles an hour, to boot.) i babbled for what seemed like an eternity, and then practically ran out of the room. i suck.

a number of people already knew that J and i had broken up, which i found interesting. i was catching up with some people, and i mentioned that i was single again, and they were like, "yeah, i heard!" a little unnerving that the news has made the rounds already, when i've only told a few people... but it's kind of cool as well. it may sound bizarre, but i actually get a kick out of people talking about me, good or bad... it means that someone actually finds me interesting enough to discuss. *grin*

inside the actor's studio

every once in a while, when i'm flipping the channels, i catch an episode of "inside the actor's studio". i love hearing the celebs' answers to the questions at the end, because it can reveal so much about them (including how good an actor they really are, because you KNOW they prepped their answers ahead of time and are just pretending to come up with something on the spot). being that i have such a rich inner life (*grin*), i like to think of what i'd say if i were the revered guest up on that stage...


What is your favorite word?
monkey.

What is your least favorite word?
bitch.

What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
being around other creative people, whether it's dancing, seeing live music, going to an art exhibit... i always come back from those experiences so giddy and inspired.

What turns you off?
people who act "entitled". it's incredibly ugly.

What is your favorite curse word?
fuckingpieceofshit (usually said in the car.)

What sound or noise do you love?
my cats purring. when they purr, it means everything's right with the world. puts an instant grin on my face.

What sound or noise do you hate?
people yelling at each other.

What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
i'd love to design clothes. i can't sketch worth a damn, but i'm always complaining about hating what's in stores, so it'd be cool to learn.

What profession would you not like to do?
maid. i hate cleaning.

If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
"good job. now, get down there and have another lifetime on me. enjoy."