am i turning into a man?

[swingchickie]

why won't my sex drive calm down? i've never been this obsessed before... i go to sleep fantasizing, and i wake up fantasizing. a good chunk of my waking hours is spent turned on. good lord, it's unnerving. is this what it feels ike to be a guy? did someone re-wire me when i wasn't looking?

well, if i'm not a guy, then i've definitely turned into a 14-year-old girl. seriously. the flirting thing went horribly wrong again yesterday, i think i need to take some classes in it. i was at a barbecue with a bunch of people i know from dancing, and who showed up but the adorable doctor i mentioned in a post a couple of months ago. at one point, he came over to me and asked how everything was, and i believe my response was something like, "duh... duh... duh... duh..." (<--- spoken at 500 miles an hour, to boot.) i babbled for what seemed like an eternity, and then practically ran out of the room. i suck.

a number of people already knew that J and i had broken up, which i found interesting. i was catching up with some people, and i mentioned that i was single again, and they were like, "yeah, i heard!" a little unnerving that the news has made the rounds already, when i've only told a few people... but it's kind of cool as well. it may sound bizarre, but i actually get a kick out of people talking about me, good or bad... it means that someone actually finds me interesting enough to discuss. *grin*

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[12thknight.livejournal.com]

the sex drive of most women past 30 speeds by the juvenile breast-obsessed crushes of men and never looks back. unfortunately this is probably normal, so hang on, because the ride only gets faster.

meanwhile I consider myself warned and will tell my broker to buy as many shares of Duracell as she finds available.

seriously...it's not a guy or a girl thing. it's yearning for contentment and fulfillment after loss. the only mistake you can make from this is rebounding with a person who uses you. you're far too nice a person for that.

just be careful. ::hug::

[swingchickie.livejournal.com]

"meanwhile I consider myself warned and will tell my broker to buy as many shares of Duracell as she finds available."

hee hee! that might not be too far from the truth. actually, i have sprung for mechanical apparatuses (apparati? apparatusususues?) 3 times in my life, and each time something went horribly wrong. perhaps when i'm feeling silly some time, and forget that people read this, i'll post.

and thx for your concern... ::hug:: i'm not so worried about being used, because i'm really not looking to fall in love right away after this breakup. and i hate the thought of one-night stands, eew. but it would be nice to have a "friend with benefits" to help out a couple of times and get this out of my system. no guilt, no games, no strings... just someone i know and trust who wouldn't mind having fun for a bit during the friendship.

[thetech.livejournal.com]

Some say that the "friend with benefits" things never really turns out. However, I've never been in that position to verify the statement's veracity.

That being said, I'd be willing to be part of the "research team" *wiggling eyebrows* ;)

[...I'm sorry, I couldn't resist the opportunity to toss in a flirtatious innuendo :D]

[swingchickie.livejournal.com]

*chortle*

actually, i did have one once, a number of years ago. it was fun and sexy and worked pretty well on and off for a couple of years. it's a tricky thing though... if the circumstances aren't right, it can be really really bad. i guess i was just lucky.

[12thknight.livejournal.com]

someone you know and trust is the hard part. trust, in my experience, is a harder thing than love. in a large way, love - or the perception, the feeling, the effusion of hormones and the electric aura one gets - that's almost easy.

but although it is Sunday, you did not ask me to preach. (that'd be my brother, the church elder). so...my apologies.

[mattstratton.livejournal.com]

...each time something went horribly wrong

It began as a normal night to the adult novelty store.

When something went horribly wrong.

This Christmas, Li'l Momma is...

DIE HARD 4: DIE HORNY

I don't know. it just seemed like the playup for some bad action movie.

[swingchickie.livejournal.com]

oh, you are too funny! and no putting this on windyhop... that's a thread i don't need!!!

[thetech.livejournal.com]

"...i actually get a kick out of people talking about me, good or bad... it means that someone actually finds me interesting enough to discuss."

Yeah, it's like one of those "Hey! They're talking about me!/Hey! Why aren't they talking about me!" situations ;)

[swingchickie.livejournal.com]

*chortle* exactly!