Li'l Momma's Rant-O-Rama

i've gained and lost the same pound for several days in a row now. 6 pounds gone, and i'm stalled. i'm now at the end of 2 weeks, and i'd hoped to be down 8-10. perhaps it's because i haven't done any exercise since friday night... i'm going to go to the gym tomorrow for the 1st time (yay!) and see if the scale starts moving again.

today was hard again... taco bar at lunch (i just ate the meat, cheese and lettuce... no corn chips or taco shells), deep-fried mozzarella sticks and a big vat of hershey kisses at snack time (i ate nuts at my desk). i'm a little pissed that i'm being so good and the weight isn't continually dropping off, but i have faith that it'll come off slowly but surely.

a male co-worker'c comment as i walked by today: "hey Rice, you're getting skinny too fast!" YEAH, losing 6 pounds (i need to lose around 60) isn't exactly "skinny". but i enjoyed the comment. :)

i'm doing well, i must say. 3 pounds gone and counting. i can already feel my jeans fitting a little bit better (being 5' tall, it's amazing how snug things can get with just a few pounds!). i'm watching what i eat but not killing myself... for example, today dad come over to grill some burgers, and he brought potato salad that his neighbor had made... i inwardly cringed, because i did want a taste of it but didn't want to completely cheat on the program. so, i had a couple of bites of the potato salad (it was good, and a couple of bites was just as good as a big serving), and just ate my burger without the bun.

i made up a batch of ricotta creme for the next few days... it's a dessert on the south beach diet, that's basically sugar-free cannoli filling. it's just part skim ricotta cheese, a little bit of bitter cocoa powder, a packet of splenda and a bit of vanilla extract. then you can sprinkle it with some espresso powder to make it mocha. i had gone to the supermarket this afternoon and spent a small fortune on extracts, so i decided to try one out... i 86'ed the espresso powder in the recipe, and swapped out the vanilla extract for coconut. WOW was it good... it tastes like an almond joy candy bar now. woo! i'm thinking of the other extracts and what i can do -- chocolate/raspberry... chocolate/rum... coconut/rum... this is going to be fun.

i didn't exercise today, salsa dancing last night completely wiped me out. plus i was exhausted... i was only up for 4 hours, and laid back down for a 2-hour nap in the afternoon. tomorrow night is salsa dancing again, so i'll get some more activity in then.

trying to figure out what to do tonight, socially. if i stay in and relax, there's the risk of wanting to snack. if i go out to the local karaoke bar, there's the risk of wanting to drink. i'm going to ahve to larn some self-control either way though, right?