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Jan. 29th, 2008 06:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
swingchickiei've decided to put away the idea of hoop teacher training in the spring. i thought long and hard about it over the last few weeks, and i'm really happy with the decision.
it really came down to *why* i was going to go through it, and it wasn't a good reason. it was more out of having the accomplishment than the enjoyment -- like it's not just good enough that i know how to hoop, "i TEACH it too!" thing is, i will never be the best hooper out there... check out youtube, and you'll find hundreds of hoopdance videos where the person just started learning 2 months ago and is already doing insanely awesome tricks. hell, if i started teaching, my students would be better than me within a month. :)
i was like this when i was deep into swing dancing, too -- i'd go to competitions and be blown away by the talent of the advanced-level dancers, mentally beating myself up that i wasn't as good as them. i don't want to be like that with hooping now... i want to just enjoy doing the steps that i know, and sometimes learning new ones, rather than feeling like i have to catch up to anyone else or achieve a certain level to feel like i'm really good. i want to get joy from the act itself, not from "accomplishing" anything.
it really came down to *why* i was going to go through it, and it wasn't a good reason. it was more out of having the accomplishment than the enjoyment -- like it's not just good enough that i know how to hoop, "i TEACH it too!" thing is, i will never be the best hooper out there... check out youtube, and you'll find hundreds of hoopdance videos where the person just started learning 2 months ago and is already doing insanely awesome tricks. hell, if i started teaching, my students would be better than me within a month. :)
i was like this when i was deep into swing dancing, too -- i'd go to competitions and be blown away by the talent of the advanced-level dancers, mentally beating myself up that i wasn't as good as them. i don't want to be like that with hooping now... i want to just enjoy doing the steps that i know, and sometimes learning new ones, rather than feeling like i have to catch up to anyone else or achieve a certain level to feel like i'm really good. i want to get joy from the act itself, not from "accomplishing" anything.
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Date: 2008-01-29 12:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-29 01:37 pm (UTC)hey, i was thinking of you this weekend... jack and i watched "the nomi song" on sunday (comcast is running it free for a few weeks, and he'd never seen it).
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Date: 2008-01-29 01:45 pm (UTC)I've moved a little bit in the other direction, in that I'm dancing daily now "whether I feel like it or not" (though I pretty much always do once I get started). But for me it is still about being the best social dancer I can be, which is about creating OMG moments I get to be a part of, not just impressing people.
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Date: 2008-01-30 11:25 pm (UTC)When I first got into college/recreation major everyone said I should work at Disneyland: the Happiest Place on Earth, what a good match I was, etc. But you know what, working there would have ruined the magic for me... and later when I got into Health and the fitness craze of things, everyone said I should teach aerobics, so motivating, etc. but I really liked walking into a class, heading for the back corner, turning off my brain, trying to do a grapevine with arm movements, sweating/getting my heart rate up and then leaving. I don't want to lead or teach there... So, enjoy hooping for the sake of enjoyment, for health and feeling kick-ass, not for the spotlight...
:)