self-awareness
Jan. 29th, 2008 06:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
swingchickiei've decided to put away the idea of hoop teacher training in the spring. i thought long and hard about it over the last few weeks, and i'm really happy with the decision.
it really came down to *why* i was going to go through it, and it wasn't a good reason. it was more out of having the accomplishment than the enjoyment -- like it's not just good enough that i know how to hoop, "i TEACH it too!" thing is, i will never be the best hooper out there... check out youtube, and you'll find hundreds of hoopdance videos where the person just started learning 2 months ago and is already doing insanely awesome tricks. hell, if i started teaching, my students would be better than me within a month. :)
i was like this when i was deep into swing dancing, too -- i'd go to competitions and be blown away by the talent of the advanced-level dancers, mentally beating myself up that i wasn't as good as them. i don't want to be like that with hooping now... i want to just enjoy doing the steps that i know, and sometimes learning new ones, rather than feeling like i have to catch up to anyone else or achieve a certain level to feel like i'm really good. i want to get joy from the act itself, not from "accomplishing" anything.
it really came down to *why* i was going to go through it, and it wasn't a good reason. it was more out of having the accomplishment than the enjoyment -- like it's not just good enough that i know how to hoop, "i TEACH it too!" thing is, i will never be the best hooper out there... check out youtube, and you'll find hundreds of hoopdance videos where the person just started learning 2 months ago and is already doing insanely awesome tricks. hell, if i started teaching, my students would be better than me within a month. :)
i was like this when i was deep into swing dancing, too -- i'd go to competitions and be blown away by the talent of the advanced-level dancers, mentally beating myself up that i wasn't as good as them. i don't want to be like that with hooping now... i want to just enjoy doing the steps that i know, and sometimes learning new ones, rather than feeling like i have to catch up to anyone else or achieve a certain level to feel like i'm really good. i want to get joy from the act itself, not from "accomplishing" anything.
