updates...

it's interesting to see how people react when you tell them you've just ended a long relationship. i've had 2 very distinct responses... one group of people has been very concerned, making sure i'm okay, offering to take me out for drinks, dinner, etc. the other group has been like, "oh yeah, you said that's been coming for a while, how sad. so let me tell you about my weekend..." i mean, jeez, not that i expect to be fawned over, but it's a BREAKUP, for crying out loud. *sigh*

i cut my hair even shorter. i hated my other cut, it was a mess... so i found a new guy, Dana at M salon... found him thru naturallycurly.com, a great site for women with curly hair. he did a great job, it's really cute and pixie-ish now. i'm MUCH happier!

i'm going out dancing again tonight... and i'm very proud of myself with the whole "flirty-boy" situation. saw him out on tuesday, and i danced with him once and that was it. i think i just developed an interest in him because i've been horny as hell... well, and he is quite cute, and his outrageous flirting just adds fuel to the fire. but i think i need to just control my hormones and i'll be fine. otherwise, the next person i date is going to end up in traction from my overzealousness. poor man. lol

RANT!!! RANT!!! RANT!!!

*sigh*. i hate people sometimes.

had the nastiest phone conversation today with the billing person at my doctor's office. for the past several months, they have been sending me a bill for money i don't owe them... basically, when i had a visit back in january, they billed my old health insurance, instead of the new insurance i had just taken on. now, i'll admit, i should have contacted them sooner about the issue... but it kept slipping my mind, and it was their mistake so i didn't act on it urgently.

so, 3 days ago, i called this billing person to give her the correct insurance information. she waited until today to call me back, and in her first breath, proceeded to rip me a new one. i was horrified. i can understand that she is in a job where she must deal with nasty people all day, but good lord, i was trying to be pleasant with her and she just let the conversation devolve. by the end of it, she was insinuating that i was at fault, and/or that i was lying about the situation. like i would do that over a bill of only $90.

so, long story short, it's still not resolved, she's going to call me back, and in the meantime i'm hopping mad and considering switching doctors. grrr.

in good news... the office manager at one of my customers told me this morning that, in my new pixie haircut, i looked "stunning". i gave her the biggest hug ever.

oops.

52.6%. eek.

purity test

flirting.

so, flirting is a very hard thing for me. i know that eventually i'll have to remember how to do it, now that i'm single again... but it's just really hard.

tonight i mentioned my new single status to a guy i know from my swing dances... he made a joke like "ooh, really? tell me more...", but there was an undercurrent of sincerity to it... and i got all awkward and just sort of stammered, and i think it made him really uncomfortable. he didn't talk to me for the rest of the night. *sigh*

i just don't know how to handle attention from a guy. when i've done the blind dating thing, it's been fine, because you already know that you're attracted to one another and that there's dating potential there. so there's no question. but in other situations, i'm just so fuzzy... i'm not the gal you'd focus on in a bar, the 5' tall redhead, when the place is full of 21-year-old blondes... so when i do get attention from a guy, i never know if i'm reading too much into it, or if it's legitimate... so i just bristle. case in point: the schoolgirl way i acted the last few weeks around the "flirty boy" from dancing... i got a little bit of attention from him, which he gives to EVERYONE, and i went all giddy and then felt like an ass later. so now i feel burnt, and i don't want to assume that anyone's truly interested in me. lol

ah, the single life. you gotta love it.