relationship woes
Jul. 21st, 2004 11:45 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
swingchickieah, life can get so interesting.
the ex is moving out this weekend, and it's finally starting to hit me. over the last couple of days, i've found myself getting a teeny bit weepy at times. i don't want us to get back together, i know we are much better off as friends... but i guess it's just sad when you build a life with someone for several years, you have your in-jokes and all the other stuff that goes into the rhythm of your relationship, and *poof*! it's suddenly over. very, very sad.
of all things, this morning i got an IM from an old friend... we had a "friends with benefits" relationship for years when i first moved to boston... basically if we were both single and needy, we'd go out to dinner, and end up entangled and sweaty a few hours later. then one of us would get into a relationship, and we wouldn't see each other for a few months, a year, whatever... until we were both available again. well, lo and behold, my ex is moving out this weekend, and he just ended a several-year relationship himself. we haven't seen each other in 4 years, and he's invited me to dinner so we can catch up. i have such mixed feelings... it really would be nice to see him, he's a good guy and it's been a long time... but i have no desire to sleep with him anymore. i just want the friendship part. so i need to figure out if this is just dinner, or another installment of our old situation... because i don't want to have to fend him off. ugh.
in the meantime, i've been in close touch with the guy i had the coffee date with last week. he's such a sweetheart, totally chivalrous and so full of love. we're at that interesting point, though, where we're doing that getting-to-know-you dance... throw out a piece of info, see what the other person thinks of it... then they throw you one, and you decide whether it's something you can accept or not... one-two-three, one-two-three. there are a couple of things that give me pause, but i don't really have a right to judge. i mean, heck, i have my own baggage... (jesus, i practically have an entire matching set of louis vuitton.) we'll just have to continue to dance and see where the steps lead us.
the ex is moving out this weekend, and it's finally starting to hit me. over the last couple of days, i've found myself getting a teeny bit weepy at times. i don't want us to get back together, i know we are much better off as friends... but i guess it's just sad when you build a life with someone for several years, you have your in-jokes and all the other stuff that goes into the rhythm of your relationship, and *poof*! it's suddenly over. very, very sad.
of all things, this morning i got an IM from an old friend... we had a "friends with benefits" relationship for years when i first moved to boston... basically if we were both single and needy, we'd go out to dinner, and end up entangled and sweaty a few hours later. then one of us would get into a relationship, and we wouldn't see each other for a few months, a year, whatever... until we were both available again. well, lo and behold, my ex is moving out this weekend, and he just ended a several-year relationship himself. we haven't seen each other in 4 years, and he's invited me to dinner so we can catch up. i have such mixed feelings... it really would be nice to see him, he's a good guy and it's been a long time... but i have no desire to sleep with him anymore. i just want the friendship part. so i need to figure out if this is just dinner, or another installment of our old situation... because i don't want to have to fend him off. ugh.
in the meantime, i've been in close touch with the guy i had the coffee date with last week. he's such a sweetheart, totally chivalrous and so full of love. we're at that interesting point, though, where we're doing that getting-to-know-you dance... throw out a piece of info, see what the other person thinks of it... then they throw you one, and you decide whether it's something you can accept or not... one-two-three, one-two-three. there are a couple of things that give me pause, but i don't really have a right to judge. i mean, heck, i have my own baggage... (jesus, i practically have an entire matching set of louis vuitton.) we'll just have to continue to dance and see where the steps lead us.
