swingchickie | awful, awful day. (Reply)

thanks everyone who posted and/or called in reply to my last post. last night i had to say goodbye to a guy i really, really liked... someone i met a few weeks ago, who just made me feel attractive and smart and fun, and made me feel giddy every time i thought about him. it's been a long time since i got all schmoopy like this over someone, and it was a lot of fun. then he had to go and be a doofus and do something that hurt my feelings, enough that i had to say goodbye. and that really really sucked.

but that all pales in comparison to my day at work today. i found out this morning that one of the girls i taught this summer died over the weekend in a horrific car crash. she was one of my favorite trainees... she was the nicest person you'd ever want to meet, and smart, and so exotically beautiful. she always had a big smile on her face, even if she was stressed about her studies. and this past weekend, she, her husband, and their 14-month-old child died when their car jumped the median on the highway and burst into flames. and to make it even worse, she was 6 months pregnant. my clearest memory of her is the day she pulled me aside during a break in class, and whispered to me that she'd just found out she was expecting. she was green from the nausea, but absolutely beaming. and to think that this beautiful, wonderful girl and her family are all gone... well, i cried my eyes out in the ladies room and have been walking around just stunned ever since.

i'm sick, too, so it's making me even more weepy than usual. i'm just going to crawl under my blankets and cope until i fall asleep.