i need a big hug.
Apr. 25th, 2006 09:06 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
swingchickiei dunno, the trip to boston (i think especially with all the monkey stuff) has left me feeling pretty vulnerable this week. i find myself missing C, partly because i haven't seen him in almost 2 weeks and partly because i think i just need to be held for a while. i told him how i've been feeling, and he promised a big squishy hug of epic proportions when we see each other later in the week. excellent.
this early phase of dating C has been interesting. we've both been so busy with work and travel, we haven't been able to jump in and see each other constantly, the way you normally want to in a new relationship. last week he was really forthcoming about his feelings... he told me that he's dated a lot of people since he moved to philly, and he never really got invested in any of the relationships... but with me, he doesn't want to take that same casual attitude, because we will never work out. he thinks i'm really special, and he doesn't want our busy lives to get in the way of us trying to develop something. so we promised that we'd make specific plans to see each other when we could, even if it means planning a month or more in advance. we shall see.
another kitty thought... when i was in boston, there was a news story about a litter of teeny one-month-old kittens abandoned by someone on the cape, in the same spot as a litter that was abandoned last year (seems like someone needs to fix their cat instead of doing this every year... they should be slapped). of course, they showed these itty bitty little fluffballs in the news story, and my heart just about exploded and i immediately wanted to adopt all of them and loooooooove them. there was a split second where i actually thought about driving down to the cape and adopting one to bring home to philly... but then i stopped myself, because 1. i still need to deal with my monkey issues and 2. angus is SO loving being the only cat, i just don't have the heart yet to bring home another. and it made me think of a conversation C and i had a few weeks ago:
me: would you ever adopt a kitty sibling for Junior?
C: no way...
me: why?
C: because 2 cats equals 5 cats.
me: what?
C: you see, i get a second cat to keep junior company... and then i date a girl who has 2 cats for the same reason... that's 4 cats.
me: right...
C: but then you end up getting a cat together, and that's 5 cats. so 2 cats = 5 cats!
hee. do i let him know that by the time i'm 80, i'll probably be crazy and have 50 cats?
this early phase of dating C has been interesting. we've both been so busy with work and travel, we haven't been able to jump in and see each other constantly, the way you normally want to in a new relationship. last week he was really forthcoming about his feelings... he told me that he's dated a lot of people since he moved to philly, and he never really got invested in any of the relationships... but with me, he doesn't want to take that same casual attitude, because we will never work out. he thinks i'm really special, and he doesn't want our busy lives to get in the way of us trying to develop something. so we promised that we'd make specific plans to see each other when we could, even if it means planning a month or more in advance. we shall see.
another kitty thought... when i was in boston, there was a news story about a litter of teeny one-month-old kittens abandoned by someone on the cape, in the same spot as a litter that was abandoned last year (seems like someone needs to fix their cat instead of doing this every year... they should be slapped). of course, they showed these itty bitty little fluffballs in the news story, and my heart just about exploded and i immediately wanted to adopt all of them and loooooooove them. there was a split second where i actually thought about driving down to the cape and adopting one to bring home to philly... but then i stopped myself, because 1. i still need to deal with my monkey issues and 2. angus is SO loving being the only cat, i just don't have the heart yet to bring home another. and it made me think of a conversation C and i had a few weeks ago:
me: would you ever adopt a kitty sibling for Junior?
C: no way...
me: why?
C: because 2 cats equals 5 cats.
me: what?
C: you see, i get a second cat to keep junior company... and then i date a girl who has 2 cats for the same reason... that's 4 cats.
me: right...
C: but then you end up getting a cat together, and that's 5 cats. so 2 cats = 5 cats!
hee. do i let him know that by the time i'm 80, i'll probably be crazy and have 50 cats?
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Date: 2006-04-25 01:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-25 01:28 pm (UTC)I have been thinking of Barney so much lately,i see dogs and i wanna take them from ppl cars and take them home.
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Date: 2006-04-25 04:48 pm (UTC)i think the monkey thing is because the day she died, i got the offer for my new job... and 4 days later i was down in philly and working. my only other time in boston was when i was back on the weekends to pack and say goodbye to friends... so i never really dealt with her death the way i should have. and being in boston on more relaxed terms must have brought up some of the grief i didn't get a chance to feel. it stinks, because now every day there's at least one moment when i'm on the verge of tears.
sorry you're going through the same thing still. ugh.
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Date: 2006-04-25 03:40 pm (UTC)and he's right.
my family now consists of 6 dogs, 6 birds, 2 cats, 2 kids and 1 boyfriend
*hugs*
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Date: 2006-04-25 04:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-25 11:49 pm (UTC)sorry i can't do more. . .i'm on call again this weekend. if you want another sushi date, let me know!
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Date: 2006-04-26 12:43 pm (UTC)