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this has been a hell of a week. work is absolutely insane, back to where i was in january and february. i was in the office until 11pm thursday night, and could have stayed all night if i hadn't been so darn tired. tomorrow's going to be a full day in the office as well, just so i can stay caught up. (yes, tomorrow is sunday.) it'll all be over in a couple of weeks, but for now i'm just zooming... everyone -- co-workers, managers at work, my mom, are telling me not to work so hard... but, HELLO, i have 3 projects all peaking at the same time and everyone else is overloaded and so it's up to me to get my own stuff done. *heavy sigh*. i swear, i'm taking the whole week of thanksgiving off, and i am going to SLEEP the entire week away.
a not-so-fun side effect of the stress is that it's made me realize just how single i am right now. thursday night i was just so tired and at my wit's end... and i came home and got into bed, and laid there wide awake, feeling very alone. up until now being single hasn't really bothered me, i enjoy dating various people and i like having time for myself... but that night, what i wanted more than anything was to come home to someone who loved me, who would put his arms around me and just hold me for a really long time until i decompressed. i wanted to fall asleep in the arms of someone who made me feel loved and safe. and it really, really sucked that i didn't have that.
in happier news, i took last night off to take care of myself a bit. i ran an errand at the mall, and then went out for sushi and read a few chapters of my new book while i ate... came home and put on my jammies, and watched the next 4 episodes of "lost" on DVD. it helped me relax a little bit, and hopefully the wedding this afternoon will do that even more. hopefully.
a not-so-fun side effect of the stress is that it's made me realize just how single i am right now. thursday night i was just so tired and at my wit's end... and i came home and got into bed, and laid there wide awake, feeling very alone. up until now being single hasn't really bothered me, i enjoy dating various people and i like having time for myself... but that night, what i wanted more than anything was to come home to someone who loved me, who would put his arms around me and just hold me for a really long time until i decompressed. i wanted to fall asleep in the arms of someone who made me feel loved and safe. and it really, really sucked that i didn't have that.
in happier news, i took last night off to take care of myself a bit. i ran an errand at the mall, and then went out for sushi and read a few chapters of my new book while i ate... came home and put on my jammies, and watched the next 4 episodes of "lost" on DVD. it helped me relax a little bit, and hopefully the wedding this afternoon will do that even more. hopefully.
