ack.

so sore.
and tired.
and anxious.

sore because i've been hauling boxes for two days, and i slept all bunched up last night because it was cold and i'd only brought one blanket down in the car until the movers came. tired because, well, the same. and anxious because i don't wanna go back to work tomorrow... i want some me-time, some mental space to get used to the new living situation and work on building a life here.

i wrote the other day about being bummed that i was leaving davis square... it was a place that was so perfect for me, there's so much life going on there. but it hit me today as i was driving around, that i don't have to feel totally lost here. sure, there's no town square to walk to that's filled with tons of people milling around and socializing... but if i let myself slip into the dynamic here, i'll be able to build my own sense of community. the pizza place in my building, the local starbucks, the deli across the street, maybe a swing dance venue or local bar... if i become a regular at some places i like, just as i did in davis, i'll get to know people and feel like i'm a part of the community a bit. i just have to look for opportunities as they happen, and embrace them happily, instead of doing my withdrawn "i'm in a new situation and i'm uncomfortable" thing. i'm hopeful that in a years' time i'll have some new friends and will be more settled into my job, and i won't feel quite so alone.

angus has done a much better job of settling in than me. he's snoring away next to me on the couch right now. he followed me around all afternon as i unpacked, checking where i was putting everything. i'm a little over half unpacked right now... all that's left are my clothes, kitchen stuff, and hanging my pictures up. the place is finally taking shape, and with a few decorate-y touches it'll be quite nice. i certainly have more room, that's for sure... i've never had so much closet space in my life! my bedroom alone has 2 big closets... and there are three in the hall! whee! i'm not crazy about the main bathroom, the toilet and sink are olive green (ugh)... but the bathroom in my bedroom is cool, the fixtures are robin's egg blue. i've never seen that color in a bathroom before, only powder blue or mustard yellow or whatever... but i'm psyched, because my favorite color combination in the world is robin's egg blue and chocolate brown. in fact, i was so psyched, after the movers left i went right across the street to bed bath and beyond, and bought hand towels in that color combo to match everything. i'll pick up some brown candles and stuff from target for the vanity, and i'll be all set. :)

god, i need a big glass of water and an advil (i have a massive headache from being dehydrated). and a bath for the sore muscles. plus i need to chug some more o.j. -- one of my movers had a raging cold and kept coughing every 2 seconds, and i'm sure my immune system is ripe for the picking after all my recent stress. i bought a half gallon of o.j. with extra vitamic c and zinc added, and i've been downing it pretty heartily. hopefully it'll stave off whatever's trying to attack me. *crosses fingers*

2 more days of work, and then the long weekend... yay!