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what a crapfest of a day.
Sep. 12th, 2005 06:37 pmi'm still sad about the physician who died the other day in that awful accident. for some reason, it's really gotten to me. i was in a funk all day, even had some tears rolling down my face when i was in the office of one of his colleagues. she was priceless though, she's one of those people who always shoots from the hip... when she saw i was upset, she was like, "i know, it's tragic... but WHO the HELL rides a scooter in the middle of the city???" coming from a close friend of his, it cracked me up a teeny bit. she's cool.
monkey's not doing well either, which adds to my down-ness. i had her in the ER this weekend for fluids, because she's stopped eating again. she's down almost 4 pounds, which is 1/3 of her body weight. she has an appointment wednesday morning for chemo, i think instead of giving her the next treatment they're going to have to insert a feeding tube into her nose, down into her stomach, so i can feed her that way for a couple of weeks until she gains some weight. ugh. seeing a tube coming out of that teeny weeny nose is going to send me over the edge. the oncologist promises me that i'm being humane, that i'm doing the right thing for her, and i believe i am too... she says that she has a couple of other patients right now with the tubes in, and they're doing great... but it's going to kill me to see my baby that way. we'll have to see.
it's a miracle that i'm even remotely sticking to my WW program right now. i am desperate for a pint of ben & jerry's wavy gravy (they re-released it!).
monkey's not doing well either, which adds to my down-ness. i had her in the ER this weekend for fluids, because she's stopped eating again. she's down almost 4 pounds, which is 1/3 of her body weight. she has an appointment wednesday morning for chemo, i think instead of giving her the next treatment they're going to have to insert a feeding tube into her nose, down into her stomach, so i can feed her that way for a couple of weeks until she gains some weight. ugh. seeing a tube coming out of that teeny weeny nose is going to send me over the edge. the oncologist promises me that i'm being humane, that i'm doing the right thing for her, and i believe i am too... she says that she has a couple of other patients right now with the tubes in, and they're doing great... but it's going to kill me to see my baby that way. we'll have to see.
it's a miracle that i'm even remotely sticking to my WW program right now. i am desperate for a pint of ben & jerry's wavy gravy (they re-released it!).
