bad dream

had a bad dream last night... i can only remember a little snippet, even though it was a long one. i was incredibly high up in some sort of rickety structure, like a tall skinny tower made out of wood planks like a wooden rollercoaster. it was so high i could barely see the ground. and i had to get off the structure, but couldn't do it without falling to my death. i was wedged in the top of it, with my back against one side and my legs outstretched to brace myself and stay in... but my hands were full... so if i moved a leg, i wouldn't be braced anymore and i'd plummet like 100 stories.

i've had dreams like this before... not often, maybe a few times a year... that i'm very high up and i'm too terrified to move. and usually (this was the case last night, too), there's at least one person with me there, who is like, "oh don't be ridiculous." but they don't understand my extreme fear of heights.

hrm.

hee...

so, i posted a few weeks ago about a super-tall couple at the rufus wainwright concert, who made out directly in front of me and D for half the show. the next day, i was still so peeved, i vented by e-mailing off an "improper impersonal" to the improper bostonian. (for non-bostonians, the improper is a bi-weekly free rag here... the "impersonals" are where people send in anonymous letters to people who have pissed them off, or someone they saw on the T who they want to get to know better, or whatever.) i totally forgot i sent it in, and even as i was writing it i figured they'd think it was dumb and delete it.

i opened up the new issue of the improper this week, and my "impersonal" is at the top, centered, in a big font, boxed in, with the title "immortal impersonal". um, i guess they liked it. *chuckle*

oh, sweet baby jesus.

and so the LJ drama continues. many of you will recall the craziness from a couple of months ago, when i put up a relationship-type post and all sorts of psycho stalker mayhem ensued. both before and after that, this particular person and i traded a series of heated e-mails about the couple of months that we dated, and it was just full of 7th grade drama that i won't even get into. as you can imagine i pretty much said "leave me alone" and washed my hands of the whole thing.

so today, i was reading an LJ community that i frequent, and said person had recently joined and posted. feeling magnanimous (must be the holiday weekend *chuckle*), on the spur of the moment i typed in a quick "hi, saw you moved in w/your girlfriend, congrats" kind of thing. little did i know that that simple post would open up the floodgates (pardon the expression), and that i'd spend my afternoon fielding his flame response on the board, plus pissy e-mails saying that i must have meant that in the worst possible way and what a hurtful person i am.

*sigh* have i mentioned i just hate people? i try to be nice for once in my life... and as my grandmother would say, "they tear off your head and s*** down your neck."