get out the crucifix and holy water...

...because some demons are about to get exorcised.

a couple of weeks ago, i had posted a horoscope of mine, that opened up a pandora's box of old issues for me. it's funny -- i am very open with my feelings, and so you'd think that i'd be able to get stuff out and then move on. but nope... i've always said that i don't just hold a grudge, i brandish it... there's painful stuff from when i was much younger that i still cling to, and it's wicked unhealthy. so that horoscope (and thanks to my friends who called and IMed me out of concern, that was really sweet) got the wheels turning again. there are actually a couple of people/situations that made it hit home for me... but i'm only going to talk about one of them today, because it's actually come up in an interesting turn of events.

( long analysis of jenn's past behind the cut )

and as a follow-up to the last post, my horoscope today:

Scorpio: This hasn't been a particularly easy time for you Scorpions, and the ride isn't yet over. You may now feel a fresh wave of feelings washing over you, but the danger is holding onto the past instead of letting it flow into the future. Practice with your mind by envisioning totally new and different scenarios. Don't judge your thoughts, however outrageous they may be. Just think about every possible path you could take.