*sigh*. what is my problem?
Jan. 27th, 2006 10:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
swingchickiewow, am i down. like, really, really down. maybe it's the work stress catching up with me, i dunno. but i just want to crawl into bed and not come out for a few days.
it hit me today that valentine's day is in a couple of weeks, and i have nothing to do. and for some reason, it hit me really hard. i've had plenty of valentine's days where i wasn't dating anyone, and it was never a big whoop. but this time it's completely bummed me out. the funny thing is, i'm not exactly on a manhunt at the moment... god knows i don't have the time right now to commit to someone who'd deserve it... so i'm not sure why i'd be casual about starting a relationship, and yet sad that i'm not in one.
even funnier in all this is that i've recently rejected some seemingly really nice guys on yahoo. just today, i got a message from a guy who lives near me... attractive, owns his own business, loved my profile and was really interested in meeting. my reply? something along the lines of "thanks, but i noticed in your profile that you're looking for a woman who's slender... and i have a big ass, so we wouldn't be a good match, best of luck". completely shot him down before he met me... or, i guess, shot him down before he could shoot me down after seeing the aforementioned big ass.
*sigh*. i have no right to feel unloved, when i'm not allowing anyone the chance to love me. what the hell is my deal? i'm just going to head to bed, and hope that when i get up in the morning i'm in a cheerier mood. and that maybe i'll forget about valentine's day until it's over.
it hit me today that valentine's day is in a couple of weeks, and i have nothing to do. and for some reason, it hit me really hard. i've had plenty of valentine's days where i wasn't dating anyone, and it was never a big whoop. but this time it's completely bummed me out. the funny thing is, i'm not exactly on a manhunt at the moment... god knows i don't have the time right now to commit to someone who'd deserve it... so i'm not sure why i'd be casual about starting a relationship, and yet sad that i'm not in one.
even funnier in all this is that i've recently rejected some seemingly really nice guys on yahoo. just today, i got a message from a guy who lives near me... attractive, owns his own business, loved my profile and was really interested in meeting. my reply? something along the lines of "thanks, but i noticed in your profile that you're looking for a woman who's slender... and i have a big ass, so we wouldn't be a good match, best of luck". completely shot him down before he met me... or, i guess, shot him down before he could shoot me down after seeing the aforementioned big ass.
*sigh*. i have no right to feel unloved, when i'm not allowing anyone the chance to love me. what the hell is my deal? i'm just going to head to bed, and hope that when i get up in the morning i'm in a cheerier mood. and that maybe i'll forget about valentine's day until it's over.
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Date: 2006-01-28 04:38 am (UTC)Friends of mine did attend some sort of "tell us the story of your worst date ever" anti-Valentine's-Day event last year and have a fabulous time, I am told.
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Date: 2006-01-28 03:25 pm (UTC)i love the idea of the worst date thing. that absolutely rocks. :)
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Date: 2006-01-28 04:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-01-29 09:28 pm (UTC)So here is my plan for you missy,On February 14th, book a facial , buy a small tiny box of Godiva's and a bouqet of flowers!!
Love yourself, screw all others!!! (not literally of course ~giggle)
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Date: 2006-01-30 12:44 am (UTC)that sounds like a great idea... maybe a spa mani and pedi, and takeout sushi from the place near me. sounds like a great way to spend an evening. and i expect a full report on your, ahem, goings-on... so i can live vicariously through you!!!