swingchickie | baby steps

monkey's sloooowly getting better. i'm measuring her progress in "meals not barfed back up". so far we're up to 2 small meals a day, hopefully getting up to 3, and then we'll increase the actual volume of the feedings.

i'm glad she's home and that i've had this time with her. it's given me a chance to really assess her situation and calmly make some decisions. i promised her last night, as we were snuggling, that i wouldn't put her back in the hospital again. i just can't do something that terrifies her so much, especially considering that our time would still be limited after that. i decided no more chemo... there's no point in getting her eating again and then starting up the very thing that made her stop eating to begin with. so once she's over this hump, i'll have to talk with the oncologist about what we do next.

in the meantime, i'm eating up every moment i can. this afternoon, when i came home from work, i took a little nap... and she crawled up onto the pillow with me and held my hand. just like old times. and i heard her purr for the first time in weeks. that's my girl.