a wierd first day...
Dec. 2nd, 2003 07:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
swingchickieto say the least. i started out so well -- 5am at the gym, healthy breakfast, lots of water throughout the day... ate a low-carb lunch and 1/2 an apple as a snack... even when i met up with a friend for dinner, i got a regular coffee and hummus wrap instead of my usual mocha, tuna salad and giant brownie. i was really proud of myself.
but then something odd happened on my way to my playwright's meeting after dinner... i was waiting for the subway, and all of a sudden i just felt... odd. it's hard to explain... every once in a while, i just get this feeling that my body is sorta "off", and it really makes me nervous. i was a bit weak, and a bit shaky and spacy, and every once in a while my heart would go BANGbababababababa... i know it wasn't any kind of panic thing, lord knows i've experienced that before... this was more biological. i have a feeling the girl who made my sandwich forgot to put the cheese in it (i didn't see or taste any), so i was basically running on caffeine and carbs (no protein) and my body went out of whack. that's one of the frustrating things about me staying healthy and fit -- with my body, there's a very fine line between eating healthy and feeling like crap. so i had to bag my meeting, for fear i'd faint in the middle of it... instead, after going all the way there, i took a cab home... ate some plain turkey slices and put my feet up so the faint feeling would subside. after about an hour i felt more normal, but tired.
this morning i didn't go to the gym. wouldn't you know, we had a freak snowstorm like i mentioned in my last post. so this afternoon i'll do an exercise video before my evening meeting. this meeting should be an interesting one... i belong to an organization that, completely unrelated to its purpose, happens to have a huge proportion of its members who are clinically or morbidly obese. when i go to any of the meetings, be it local or national, i am actually one of the skinnier ones in the group. it's hard, because much of the meeting stuff ends up being centered around food... and being a stress eater, i end up eating way too much when i'm at a meeting. i've actually put feelers out through the newsletter to see if people were interested in starting a weight watchers group, or going to the gym together, etc... but no-one was interested. so perhaps, if i work out before tonight's meeting, i'll feel so good afterwards that i won't want to overeat when i'm there.
wish me luck!
but then something odd happened on my way to my playwright's meeting after dinner... i was waiting for the subway, and all of a sudden i just felt... odd. it's hard to explain... every once in a while, i just get this feeling that my body is sorta "off", and it really makes me nervous. i was a bit weak, and a bit shaky and spacy, and every once in a while my heart would go BANGbababababababa... i know it wasn't any kind of panic thing, lord knows i've experienced that before... this was more biological. i have a feeling the girl who made my sandwich forgot to put the cheese in it (i didn't see or taste any), so i was basically running on caffeine and carbs (no protein) and my body went out of whack. that's one of the frustrating things about me staying healthy and fit -- with my body, there's a very fine line between eating healthy and feeling like crap. so i had to bag my meeting, for fear i'd faint in the middle of it... instead, after going all the way there, i took a cab home... ate some plain turkey slices and put my feet up so the faint feeling would subside. after about an hour i felt more normal, but tired.
this morning i didn't go to the gym. wouldn't you know, we had a freak snowstorm like i mentioned in my last post. so this afternoon i'll do an exercise video before my evening meeting. this meeting should be an interesting one... i belong to an organization that, completely unrelated to its purpose, happens to have a huge proportion of its members who are clinically or morbidly obese. when i go to any of the meetings, be it local or national, i am actually one of the skinnier ones in the group. it's hard, because much of the meeting stuff ends up being centered around food... and being a stress eater, i end up eating way too much when i'm at a meeting. i've actually put feelers out through the newsletter to see if people were interested in starting a weight watchers group, or going to the gym together, etc... but no-one was interested. so perhaps, if i work out before tonight's meeting, i'll feel so good afterwards that i won't want to overeat when i'm there.
wish me luck!
