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oh... god.
Jun. 10th, 2005 02:58 pmmonkey may be dying.
i took her to the ER the other morning, because she wasn't acting right... would only eat a few bites of food at a time, and spent all day and night hiding under the bed. the ER vet examined her and said her kidneys felt a bit odd, but everything else seemed normal. she did a blood draw, and said she'd call with the results.
i got the blood results, and her post-antibiotic (from the previous UTI) urine results on the same day. there was blood in her urine, and a slightly elevated white cell count in her blood. her regular vet wanted her kidneys ultrasounded, to see if she had a secondary infection from all the UTIs she struggled with over the last couple of months. so i dropped her and angus off at the big hospital (where the ER is), to be boarded while i'm home in philly, and monkey could get her ultrasound done today while she was there.
the vet called me just now, and she sounded really awful in that hesitant doctor-who-hates-giving-really-bad-news way. it looks like lymphoma, she said, and they're going to aspirate her kidneys to check for cancer cells. i won't know until the end of next week when the results come back... but if it really is cancer, according to the research i've done, she doesn't have much longer to live.
god. god. god. god. god.
i can barely function right now. the thought of this is terrifying me... not having her in my life anymore. last night, she climbed up into bed with me, hunkered down behind me, put her little fuzzy arm around my neck, and purred in my ear until i fell asleep. how do i go on without her?
i took her to the ER the other morning, because she wasn't acting right... would only eat a few bites of food at a time, and spent all day and night hiding under the bed. the ER vet examined her and said her kidneys felt a bit odd, but everything else seemed normal. she did a blood draw, and said she'd call with the results.
i got the blood results, and her post-antibiotic (from the previous UTI) urine results on the same day. there was blood in her urine, and a slightly elevated white cell count in her blood. her regular vet wanted her kidneys ultrasounded, to see if she had a secondary infection from all the UTIs she struggled with over the last couple of months. so i dropped her and angus off at the big hospital (where the ER is), to be boarded while i'm home in philly, and monkey could get her ultrasound done today while she was there.
the vet called me just now, and she sounded really awful in that hesitant doctor-who-hates-giving-really-bad-news way. it looks like lymphoma, she said, and they're going to aspirate her kidneys to check for cancer cells. i won't know until the end of next week when the results come back... but if it really is cancer, according to the research i've done, she doesn't have much longer to live.
god. god. god. god. god.
i can barely function right now. the thought of this is terrifying me... not having her in my life anymore. last night, she climbed up into bed with me, hunkered down behind me, put her little fuzzy arm around my neck, and purred in my ear until i fell asleep. how do i go on without her?
