happy happy joy joy!

wow, things have turned around so much in the last few hours! the last few days have been really trying for me, mostly because of monkey's declining health. i was just beside myself, terrified that my time with her was starting to draw to a close. this morning, she was a mess -- she'd peed all over the floor overnight, she wouldn't eat, every time i tried to pet her or pick her up she'd cry and get all hunched up. i called the vet again, feeling like a pain in the ass (3rd or 4th call in 2 days), and told her what was going on... her reply was, basically, "get her in here immediately". so at lunch i came home and brought monkey in. the good news is, the strep infection in her bladder isn't hemolytic strep, which had been my fear. and she wasn't blocked or anything else that would cause alarm... just in a lot of pain and needing a new course of action. so the vet gave her a bunch of IV stuff: IV pepcid for her barfy tummy, IV fluids, and an IV antibiotic. 8 hours later, monkey is a completely different cat. she's right next to me on the desk now, purring... begging for food... and totally bright-eyed and alert. i am SO thrilled! 8 hours ago, she was whimpering on my lap, and i was bawling from fear that i was going to lose her... now, she's back to her old self! please, PLEASE let her not go downhill again... it is SO good to have my old kitty back!

in other good news, the ex and i had a good conversation tonight. i took him out for a bite to eat as a belated birthday present... and, like the last time we had dinner, eventually the conversation turned to what had gone wrong with our relationship. and i was pleasantly surprised -- he took a lot of ownership for what had gone wrong, and apologized to me for the way he'd acted in different situations. it was really nice. i told him that, if anything, it was good that things went the way they did... because each of us learned how we handle stress in a live-in situation, and we now know what not to do when we find the people we're truly meant for. it was a really productive conversation, and i think our friendship is stronger for it now.

well, off to bed. i'm going to try to hit the gym in the morning... eek...